Today was a breakthrough day…
Only once before have I felt this connected with God. Felt this close. Felt like a Christian on the right path.
Today I went to Ebenezer AME Church in Fort Washington, Maryland. I can definitely say that I had a very heavy heart. It was so much of a “to-do” that I couldn’t even pay attention to what was going on. People around me were praising God and Worshiping, but I sat there and watched… unemotional and detached.
Then a song came on… The choir kept saying over and over, “God, you are my all…” And that’s when God said to me, “Get up!” At first I was like, “what?” But then He gave me a visual. A man and his wife randomly waked up to the alter and knelt to pray. So, a few moments later I got up. I squeezed down the row and made my way to the alter. As I fell on my knees I just knew exactly why I was there. God wanted me to leave my burden there and “Be Patient” That kept coming over me as I knelt there. “Be Patient! Be Patient!” I knew what He was talking about and why I needed to be patient. Then He said, “Now, tell me what you want.” I just said, “God, you know my heart. You know why it is so heavy.” Then I told him my heart’s desires. He said, “Ok. Be Patient. Now, I will grant you your heart’s desires under one condition…. You have to leave your heavy heart here at the alter.” All I remember saying was, “You are my all!”
A few moments later I got up from the alter and I literally felt lighter. I felt happier, I felt free from my heavy heart. I sat back down with tears in my eyes… but this time fully connected to what was going on. I witnessed people get saved and be freed from their burdens.
Then the Sermon! OMG! It was definitely for me! Nearly everything the preacher said related to my issue and how I needed to stand and wait on God to move. And to think that I was going to sleep through church this morning. But something told me not to blow off God today. I am so glad that I didn’t!
This taught me a lot. It taught me to leave my burdens to God. Once we start to try and handle any situation by ourselves, then it will only get worse. You will walk around with a heavy heart and want to escape. You will want to run! Run far away. I did just that, but when I came back everything was still there. I gave it to God and now I have to be patient. I have to trust in Him. Be Patient. Believe in His will….
