When you fall on your knees… Sunday, Jan 11 2009

Today was a breakthrough day…

Only once before have I felt this connected with God. Felt this close. Felt like a Christian on the right path. 

Today I went to Ebenezer AME Church in Fort Washington, Maryland. I can definitely say that I had a very heavy heart. It was so much of a “to-do” that I couldn’t even pay attention to what was going on. People around me were praising God and Worshiping, but I sat there and watched… unemotional and detached. 

Then a song came on… The choir kept saying over and over, “God, you are my all…” And that’s when God said to me, “Get up!” At first I was like, “what?” But then He gave me a visual. A man and his wife randomly waked up to the alter and knelt to pray. So, a few moments later I got up. I squeezed down the row and made my way to the alter. As I fell on my knees I just knew exactly why I was there. God wanted me to leave my burden there and “Be Patient” That kept coming over me as I knelt there. “Be Patient! Be Patient!” I knew what He was talking about and why I needed to be patient. Then He said, “Now, tell me what you want.” I just said, “God, you know my heart. You know why it is so heavy.” Then I told him my heart’s desires. He said, “Ok. Be Patient. Now, I will grant you your heart’s desires under one condition…. You have to leave your heavy heart here at the alter.” All I remember saying was, “You are my all!” 

A few moments later I got up from the alter and I literally felt lighter. I felt happier, I felt free from my heavy heart. I sat back down with tears in my eyes… but this time fully connected to what was going on. I witnessed people get saved and be freed from their burdens. 

Then the Sermon! OMG! It was definitely for me! Nearly everything the preacher said related to my issue and how I needed to stand and wait on God to move. And to think that I was going to sleep through church this morning. But something told me not to blow off God today. I am so glad that I didn’t! 

This taught me a lot. It taught me to leave my burdens to God. Once we start to try and handle any situation by ourselves, then it will only get worse. You will walk around with a heavy heart and want to escape. You will want to run! Run far away. I did just that, but when I came back everything was still there. I gave it to God and now I have to be patient. I have to trust in Him. Be Patient. Believe in His will….

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?? Friday, Jan 9 2009

Have you ever been in a relationship and lonely too?

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My “New Years” Revelation Thursday, Jan 8 2009

I know, I know… it’s supposed to be a Resolution, not a Revelation, but I came into this year a little differently. 

Right before 2008 ended, as I stood amongst a throng of people (about 2 million), I asked God to give me the same happiness in 2009 that I ended 2008 with. 

I didn’t expect to leave 2008 so happy though. It was an unexpected happiness! But, of course, I’m certainly not complaining. 

I read something today that got me to thinking about my own life. A very important person in my life made a post on their blogpost cite talking about their New Years Resolution. Their Resolution led me to my Revelation. 

I have realized that as much as you want to be supportive of someone and show that you care for someone, you have to let that person “do their own thing,” especially if they’re the type that is hinged on their own independence. The last thing that you want to do (or need to do) is force yourself on that person. In other words, don’t press your case as if you are selling a car. If you really want to prove to them that you are there for them no matter what, then silently support their decisions. If they don’t want you to breathe down their neck with support, then don’t. Give them their space and you will see how much they appreciate you. 

More to my Revelation: Never, and I mean NEVER, try to force answers out of someone, especially if you care about them. If they don’t want you to be over supportive, then what makes you think they want to throw their heart on a table and have you dissect it? That was the mistake I made. I tried to get answers to questions that were obviously predetermined. And because I tried to do that I almost wrecked a beautiful thing. So, take it from someone who has been there: Don’t force anyone to say or do anything that they don’t want to, especially if you care about them! The best thing that you can do is try and take their mind off the troubles that they already have. I’m sure they’ll get the picture that you care!

This New Year has started a bit on the “different” side. It’s been a challenge, not only in our personal lives, but on the national scale. We have a man who is trying to lead this country down a new path of success. We have two wars, one of which that  should have never been waged. We have a bloodbath in the Holy Land. We have genocide in Africa. We have massive floods in America. We have academic uncertainties. We have financial difficulties. We have an economic meltdown. We have a 1.2 trillion dollar deficit…. need I go on? I think not. 

Oh, and not to mention our personal lives! 

So, the trick is to get the personal life on level ground, then focus on everything else. A firm foundation is the best way to create a lasting relationship! One that lasts for years! (Ya know, the kind with Kids and the white picket fence…)

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Harvest Time Friday, Jan 2 2009

2008 was known as the year of sowing seeds. In other words, doing things that will be beneficial in the coming year. So, I tried to put some things in place that will benefit me in 2009. 

Well, if you haven’t noticed.. 2009 is here! It’s time that I tap back into those things that I set up and begin to reap the good graces of God Himself! 

I walked into 2009 with a smile on my face, peace in my mind, and joy in my heart. Let me tell you this right now, no one in 2009 will take any of that from me! I know there will be ups and downs, trials and tribulations, and trying times, but I also know that I will never be handed something that I can’t handle and I know that the good times and the times that I smile will outweigh the times I don’t. 

So, everyone, have a great 2009! Remember to ALWAYS put God first. Seek his judgement before taking action. Because we can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens us! 

God Bless 2009!

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Something New Monday, Dec 29 2008

Many things have changed since I’ve last written. 

First off, Christmas was excellent! More than anything, I was grateful to spend it with my family. I have not been home since August 15th, 2008 and I needed to get back and see things how they used to be. The house was the same. My brothers were the same, except Quincy can put together full sentences now! My grandparents were the same. My room looked just how I left it. The only difference was my car was gone. They sold it. 

Now, on to the “changed part”. I decided to let my facial hair grow in. That probably isn’t all that exciting to you. Probably not a big change either. But if you know me, then “me + facial hair = not shaving” and that is a big step! Don’t get me wrong, I’m not beastly looking. Now, you know I’m definitely going to groom myself. I already spend an hour in the bathroom without facial hair. We can only imagine what it’s going to be like now. And I can definitely say the time span will not reduce! 

Another change: I have gotten a tattoo. Yes, I FINALLY got one. My first. and I dedicated it to my mother. It’s a Robin (ironically) engulfed in flames. Now, don’t freak out! Nothing negative about this at all. They are eternal flames, thus, she will be with me forever. Sweet? Yea, I know! I came up with the concept all by myself! But the artist… is AMAZING! His name is Miya Bailey. He owns the shop off Walker Street (ATL) called City of Ink. He’s the dude in the “Tattoo” video who is “tattin’ everyone up” (You know, “tat tat tat tat tat tat tat it up!”) Yea, he did it! He’s done celebrities too, like Eva Pigford ( America’s Next Top Model) and many others. Look him up! He’s Great!

Yet another change: I think I snagged me a keeper! Yes, a relationship. It’s been a while, but this person came out of no where and … the compatibility… and it’s amazing how…. See, I’m speechless. (Never speechless is Jon-Michael!) So, this MUST be real. Well, I’d like to keep my relationships on wraps, so that’s all you need to know. Just know that I’m taken and NOT looking. Probably won’t be for a good while!

That’s about it. Only three things, but if  you know me, then that’s a lot! Not to mention they’re BIG changes too!

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Snow?? Saturday, Dec 6 2008

ummm… wtf is this white stuff?

So, I walked to dinner today round 5pm and this white stuff slapped me in the face as soon as I walked outside. I literally said, “What the fuck?”

After about 3 seconds I realized that it was snow. I have not seen snow in a while. It was absolutely amazing. It was until it starting coming down harder and harder– until I couldn’t see where I was walking. Nonetheless, living in DC has it advantages and disadvantages.

Botton line: I don’t do rain– or anything else that falls from the sky, for that matter. So, I wasn’t too pleased with the snow as I walked from my building to the cafe.

It was nice to see the snow before. I live in ATL (peace up, A-town down) and we don’t get snow too often. And when it does snow, it certainly does not “stick” around too long. Not to mention the entire city shuts down the moment there is a threat of snow.

But it was nice to see… Not to feel.

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Last Day of Class Thursday, Dec 4 2008

Man, I don’t know what I’m going to do for the next EIGHT days…

It’s going to be so boring. Classes end today, but I don’t leave unitl next friday. Alot of my firends are leaving either today or early next week, so chillin’ is not an option. I guess I’ll be studying for that Humanities final next week. Atleast I’ll know that stuff inside and out.

Oh well, that’s about it!

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BEYONCE DAY! Tuesday, Nov 18 2008

Today is BEYONCE DAY on BET!

In celebration of her new album release! “I Am…Sasha Fierce”

You already know I bought it! lol This morning!

So, buy it on iTunes or at Target!

Don’t steal it off the internet! She deserves the revenue… as hard as she works!

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New Page about homecoming… Coming soon! Sunday, Oct 19 2008

Exactly what it says…

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Today is The Day ! Tuesday, Oct 14 2008

Today is the day that God has made. Let us rejoyce and be glad in it!

Actually, yesterday was the day! The day that I went to the Gospel Concert at Cramton Auditorium. It was absolutely amazing!

The group God’s Image was excellent. They prove that not all young black men are wrapped up in this “game” of money chasing and “acting black” (Acting Black is a whole nother story). It’s just very rejuvenating to see good, Black young men.

Now the Howard University Gospel Choir! MY MY MY! I honestly have to say that I don’t think that I have seen or heard another Choir that could compare! They were absolutely AMAZING! Absolutely Awe-inspiring! it was unfortunate that they only performed three songs, but they were excellent in all three songs! And the Choir Director! He was great too! His energy and “fire” was beyond what I even expected!

And finally, Tye Tribbett! Now, I saw him during the Young People’s and Children’s Division Quadrinnial. And, honestly, I was not sold. BUT this time, he made me a fan. There isn’t much that I can say about the performance other than it was AMAZING and I didn’t want it to end. It’s unfortunate that I dont know too many of his songs, but I still enjoyed myself as if I knew every single word!

Going to this event really put a capstone on this new direction I’ve gone in! It furthered my understanding of how vital it is to LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! Enjoy life because you only have one. And it’s way too short to sit there and worry about all the negatives.  YESTERDAY WAS THE DAY, TODAY IS THE DAY, & THE FUTURE IS THE DAY!

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